My American Idol experience

I wasn't going to audition. In fact I had always swore never to audition for American Idol because I thought it was a joke. If I was going to become a singer as my career I was going to pursue it the right way, not through reality TV. This year Jason convinced me (took him 4 years before he pulled the "do it for our family" card.) to audition. I decided to sing Hell on Heels by the Pistol Annies. Registration Day was Monday (yesterday), and I got there at 5am. They divided us into sections and we all sat around. I stood next to a very nice hippie girl why had dread locks, and a Ukulele singing a song she wrote about murdering her love's gf so he could love her. (Uhhhh.) the cameras where everywhere. It instantly reminded me of LA again. The camera men were shallow attention seekers. "What's your sob story?" "Who traveled the farthest?!" "Hey give us a preview of your audition song!" Then when the person sang and most of the time, sounded ill prepared, they salivated at the mouth. "Yessss! The reality TV jackpot." It was hard for me to step out of my comfort zone. I would have needed to be quirky, or traveled from a far away place in order to get them to interview me, and I was NOT about to make a fool of myself on television. I stood quietly with an entertained smile while 4 times the people I was talking with we're pulled away for camera interviews. I wasn't discouraged, it was reality TV. I was there to sing, and I was beginning to understand that would be my downfall.

Audition day came an they corralled us into the front area of AT&T park. I met a lively mother an daughter from Minneapolis MN and honestly connected more with the mother. They filmed us screaming and yelling in excitement to Ryan Seacrest with his "THIS...is American Idol." Speech. Then they funneled us into the stands. I sat beside a girl who knew my family in Fallon NV, and talked about them for a while (small world), an then we all stood in a long line on the field, waiting to approach a booth to sing for two producers. Over the day, veteran auditioners mentioned that certain booths were looking for certain contestants to pass through. Some booths were looking for real singers, some were looking for train wrecks that would make good TV, some were automatically passing those that had already been interviewed by a camera. I approached the booth with my three other group members and we listened to the group in front of us finish. Singer1 was amazing, singer 2 was even better, 3 and 4 were terrible. I knew in my head, they're gunna cut 3 and 4 for sure. They ended up cutting 1 and 2!!! I realized, oh no..I'm at the train wreck booth. They're only gunna pass people who make entertaining dramatic reality television!! I relaxed inside, saying to myself "oh well, sing it out and give it your all! Give this songs glory to God." So I did. I sang my heart out and it was probably the best audition I've ever had. I was confident, my notes were spot on, and the SF police officers standing behind my table stopped their conversation to watch me and bob their heads, then clap. I felt awesome. I knew I did well, but I knew what was coming. I could tell as they discussed behind their clip boards that it was coming. They called the three of us up, who sang great, and said "Thank you for your audition, you are all talented but not what we are looking for in contestants at this time." And there it was.. My audition. I was so proud of myself! I didn't pass the first audition but I knew that it wasn't because my singing was terrible. I could see the LA/Hollywood process of it all. I didn't miss that from living in LA. 

It was so much fun, but now that its over I can really focus on getting excited for my upcoming surrogacy!! I have a couple that I am 90% sure I will be working with who are Dutch Indonesian!! I'm super excited to meet them and begin the next exciting chapter of my amazing life.